Monday, 1 September 2014

Still here after all these years - learning how to see without a camera.

proof of my existence

10 years ago this month I started treatment for breast cancer. It was not fun. I thought I would die.

5 years went by and I felt really, really lucky. I felt as though a coin that had been flipped up in the air , rotating slowly for 5 years had finally come down on my side, as I knew from the outset that I only had a 50% chance of still being well after 5 years.

10 years passed this week, and again I found it really hard to believe.

Oh me of little faith.

I AM a survivor.

It has been photography that has sustained me through those years, as a way to express my gratefulness for being alive and as a way to find inner peace.

As a consequence of small celebrations I have been gifted a new camera; see above.

I have been challenged to create something special with it.

The gauntlet was thrown down thus......

"They say a decent photographer can make something beautiful with any camera, so let's see what you've learnt over the last 10 years"

I have yet to decide how to respond; there are no instructions with the camera, and it has a flash, but I have no idea how many times it will fire. I will take my time.

Here are a couple of my favourite quotes from other photographers that feel appropriate right now.


The camera is an instrument that teaches people how to see without a camera.” - Dorothea Lange


“A great photograph is one that fully expresses what one feels, in the deepest sense, about what is being photographed.” 


Here are some fish, from the Mediterranean sea.

I am not sure I'll be able to create anything like this with my little Kodak; this was taken in a harbour in the Med last weekend on a mini break with my other half.

He took my portrait.

 wife with old stones........... 

As you can see, I am fully alive .

And still married to a man who would rather I took more pictures of a conventional nature; in focus and preferably with an old rock or two in the foreground.

We both can dream.


  1. *Oh my.. Doktor Caroline..

    How do I feel now..?

    Tweeted | Twattered as usual..

    (!) - *Noted more gentliche murmations - Pathetic | *Goodstyle, moving...



  2. *tweeted | Twatted*

    Crookid Doktor, Caroline tells it as it as.. - *Boome Boom.. * -

    I meant the double.. *You don't know... How relevant - That is..