Thursday, 18 November 2021

Salt marsh and sea water - a bit of psychogeography


Thursday, 30 September 2021

Caroline Fraser - a movie by Alisdair Kitchen for Rye Arts festival digital fringe

 
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Alisdair Kitchen filming Caroline Fraser through a bush....


​I was asked to make a movie. About my art practice.
This request came out of the blue, from a film maker Alisdair Kitchen, who was appointed by Rye Arts Festival Digital Fringe.

I did not know of him, but liked what I saw on his website very much; he has worked with opera singers and is himself a musician. His style appealed to me, so I said 'yes'.

We arranged to spend a day together, in my studio and out on location.

My main worry was what to wear.  I am clearly vainer than I realised.....


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A rusty boat at Rye Harbour


We talked in the studio, and he watched me sewing a book. The notice board and windowsill featured highly; Alisdair liked the wind blowing papers around. I admired his setup, and realised that I would probably never make a video again.....

Then we were off to Rye Harbour. 

A visual desert for my type of photography. Old buildings and boats. Way out of my normal comfort zone. 

​I walked, he followed. I wondered why I had forgotten a belt to hold my trousers up. 
​I felt acutely self conscious.


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Seagull. Rye Harbour


I saw a seagull on a chimney. 

Some cracked mud.

I pretended to take photos.

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parched earth, Rye Harbour


But mostly I saw Alisdair, and felt so self conscious that I snapped wildy at anything that I passed. This was for show; except  that it was not.

Alisdair decided that photos I took were to end up in the film. I was not keen on this idea; I don't make images when being followed closely by a cameraman. I like to be alone, quiet, getting into a rhythm by walking and thinking.
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The film maker at work


The harder I tried, the worse it felt. Alisdair was happy because he was outside, and the wind was blowing my hair.... seems he likes wind.


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Old railway shed, Rye Harbour


But I should not have worried.

Because Alisdair is a pro. The film that he made is gentle and beautiful.

Out of all the nonsense that I talked, he picked out the key elements of my story, and put them together in a way that I feel is completely true to my practice.

​You can watch it here......

Friday, 4 June 2021

Walking with Fay and Ted - a touch of writer's block on a writer's retreat in Yorkshire

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Poetry by Ted Hughes and photography by Fay Godwin

I wanted to get away. Somewhere different. To see some new scenery.

Somewhere with hills.

So where better that Lumb Bank, for a writer's retreat with the Arvon Foundation. Five days of peace. To write.

Or not, as the case may be.





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Lumb Bank, Yorkshire



Lumb bank is the former home of Ted Hughes, the poet. His wife, Sylvia Plath is buried in the graveyard just up the road. Fay Godwin, the legendary landscape photographer, and Ted Hughes created a book together 'Remains of Elmet'. Ted Hughes wrote poems in response to photographs by Fay Godwin.

I found the book in the library and was taken by the words and images describing the local landscape.

I felt sure I would find inspiration here.

With a view like this what could go wrong?


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The view from Lumb Bank garden



My fellow companions were writers in ernest.

Autofiction, a comic travel novel, a wellness book and the story of a goldfish on adventures in the Gulf of Mexico were all being worked upon seriously and diligently.

I felt a fraud. I was really there for the scenery.
I tried to write.

I really did.

I wrote some 'morning pages' every day before so much as  a cup of tea passed my lips.

I wrote some 'breakfast pages' too. Mainly about how I was not really enjoying breakfast 'in my room'. Something to do with covid...... and featuring a banana and a soggy croissant wrapped in plastic.

After recording my daily temperature......taken by me, myself and I, I set to work.



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covid daily temperature chart



I sat at my tiny writing table with its puritanical hard wood chair, and tried to write.



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a writing table



If in doubt. Go for a walk. That is my motto.

Something always comes from walking, even if it is just a calmer frame of mind.

So I loaded up my OS map onto my phone, and away I went.

Up hill and down dale. Along the Rochdale canal and up onto the moor.



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up on the moor, following the Pennine Way


I talked to cows and sheep.

Stepped in bog.

Walked by lush, peaty rivers.


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moorland sheep
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ancient stone path
I strolled by the Rochdale canal.


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towpath, Rochdale canal, with dog.
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back yards beside the rochdale canal
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Rochdale Canal



And then, when I was completely exhausted, I tried to write.

I learned a lot about writer's block. I read self help books for writers.
I felt frustrated.
I went for more walks.

I got my typewriter out.


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Olympia Splendid typewriter



Eventually I gave up trying and instead made a book about writer's block. The cutting, typing and sewing were very therapeutic.




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artist book - writer's block


Having completed that, I allowed myself to give up trying to write, and to spend my remaining day beside the river, in the damp beech forest, and watching cherry blossom drift by on the Rochdale Canal.




There is a moral to this tale......

Creativity cannot be forced...... it comes when it is ready, and while I can work at it daily, first and foremost I need to feed my soul .

I had a wonderful time. And if nothing more comes of it, then at least I am refreshed and ready for my next adventure.


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wild garlic and beeches
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In wild places

I went on a ‘writer’s retreat’.
To Hebden Bridge; the home of Ted Hughes.

But really, all that I wanted to do was to see some hills and green fields,
running water and moors.

To step out in a different landscape,
climb on boggy paths and feel the wind on my face.

I needed to walk beside rivers and streams;
to leave my footprints once more upon the Pennine Way.

I didn’t write.
No words came.

Instead I walked
and walked,
and walked some more.

There, in those wild places,
I was reunited
with my true self.

 

Saturday, 10 April 2021

On feathers - words and images in response to a pre-covid photograph


 
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Dawn Flight, Camber Sands 2019



I belong to the 'photo and text' group of London Independent Photography.
A group for photographers who also enjoy words, and who value the added meaning that text can bring.

At our last meeting we agreed to respond with words and/or images to a photograph that I made on a balmy summer's morning in the pre-covid days.

Gulls at dawn, on a gentle high tide. A double exposure with a feather filling the sky.

I decided to respond with words and new photos in the form of a poem. The following words and images are my thoughts and reflections.




Dawn flight

A photograph;
gulls drifting and rising
calling and falling over
waves stilled in the windless air.
A peachy morning glow
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Feather | Caroline Fraser 2021


A feather....

its quill still,
(no writing today)

emerges skywards 
from its silica bed.
Battered and torn,
no longer worn.
A feather re-fresh.
Self maintenance, gull style.
The pre-breeding molt.

A delicate descent
of plumage
from sky to sand.





Does it hurt when they fall?
​Why do we never see the descent?



How many feathers are needed for a bird to fly?

‘The work of feather counting is tedious and exacting, and yields small result relative to the labour involved

In 1932 Phoebe Knappen counted 11,903 feathers on an adult female mallard.



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feather detail | Caroline Fraser 2021



Rachis and vane.
Calamus and barbule.
(I am learning the words all over again).
Ripped and contorted by the roll and clatter
of pebbles on a spring tide,
lying in repose amongst fragments 
tossed landwards from the deep.
The exquisite curls of downy barbs
lie abutted as if trees on a windswept hill.


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beach debris | Caroline Fraser | 2021



I counted five feathers as I strolled
with the photograph in mind
The average gull has 5000.
Where are the rest?

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gull feather | Caroline Fraser | 2021



Thank you for reading...... it has been a while.... I think covid recovery took longer than I realised. 

I could add some comments about home life and how my other half has turned very unexpectedly into a model railway enthusiast, but you probably don't want to know the finer details of track laying and the correct angles for smooth running of railway curves.....

I insisted that he purchase a name sign for his station. I wait with bated breath; the choices are endless. It's a big decision. Suggestions welcome.

​Watch this space.....